Another Jekyl & Hyde next to the Rossauer Brücke @Donaukanal.
In the pool
painting
Jekyll & Hyde
Dawning Revelation
Unrequited love left me devastated.
It hurts like very few other things do.
I didn’t get what I wanted.
Instead life gave me something invaluable.
I finally realized I was blinded by the reflection of my own light.
Idealizing my idea of someone didn’t let me see what’s already there.
Buried deep inside me, waiting to be embraced and unleashed.
It is my love for myself that has been unrequited all along.
Void
My dream is met with pitiless indifference.
I was dreaming of falling into someone.
Never touching the ground again.
Finally I’m falling.
Into the void.
Rejection
Self-pity and self-imposed limitations are paralyzing me.
Rejection is the inevitable consequence.
Self-limitation
I’m not allowing this to happen.
I’m holding myself back.
I’m feeling overwhelmed, weak and helpless.
I’m full of fear.
I’m not stepping up.
This is the worst form of self-torture.
Salvation
I am feeling homesick for someone I have never known.
Help me escape.
Take my heart.
Let me drown in you.
Shining Light
I feel longing and yearning.
I’m burning with desire.
What ignited that passion in my heart?
Was it her smile? Her smell? The way she moves?
That shining light is blinding me.
Yet I can’t look away.
How did I get here?
I’m not able to grasp it.
Return of the Summer
I’m back but where is the summer?